i need a place where no one knows who i am.

so this is it.

i am a fairly regular mid-thirties overweight white girl. not much different from anyone else.

except for this one thing about me. or group of things. i am a medical freak. no one has ever seen "anything quite like it before." you can apply this to several malfunctions of my endocrine and reproductive systems over the last 20 some odd years.

the consistency in it is that whoever the doctor and whatever the experience, they've "never seen anything quite like it before."  i've gotten used to it.

or so i thought.

last week, i had an emergency d&c for uncontrolled heavy bleeding. uterine polyps were found, as was a fibroid. they were removed, as was more tissue than should apparently exist in a 36 year old uterus.  this was on wednesday.

on monday, there was a call from the doctor's office. "you don't have cancer, you don't have cancer, you don't have cancer. BUT - " [insert "oh, holy god..." here] ...bring the family into the office. we need to talk about next steps."

and indeed. it is not cancer.  it ain't, however, far from it. the estimation, as i understand it, is that without surgery, i have weeks to months before the mess in my uterus/reproductive system begins the march to endometrial cancer.

and THAT - well, i haven't heard anything quite like that before. this is new ground for me, and i need an outlet where i don't scare the hell out of anyone else.  this is it, internet. listen up.

i have to take four weeks of iron to build me up before i can have surgery. i think you and i have a lot of talking to do before then.